marvelous monday

this week is brought to you by my body's fat cells..

yea i give them shit for being around in such great quantity/size. however, i have to show some respect. remember this photo from thanksgiving?

well these were taken in january (09), november (08) and february (08), respectively:

sometimes it's hard for me to tell that i have in fact lost weight. the scale may say that there's a difference, but i usually can't see it. looking through these photos hit home a little bit. to me, there are subtle differences in my size, but not my shape. my cells know how to distribute themselves so i always look the same. plus i tend to gain weight so slowly that it's hard to really see what is happening. between january 08 and april 09, i had gained 16 lbs and didn't even realize it. that's what kickstarted my concern: the lack of self awareness about my weight. [i refuse to buy a scale because i think they're upsetting] at this point, my shape is still the same but my size is on the move. it can be frustrating when i look at my belly and wonder why all those crunches haven't destroyed it yet. but i'm still somewhat happy with the results i see on the scale

last week, i went on full vacation mode - eating mexican food (yum), drinking wine and snacking like a fiend. i've let the fat cells regroup a little just for the hell of it. so this week i'm getting back on track, physically and emotionally back to basics. i think i needed a little break to remind myself why i am going through this process. i could potentially reach my ultimate goal this year, but not if i forget why i want to get there. i've been doing wonderfully this entire time so it was easy to get complacent. now it's time to kick my own ass

what are you doing to refocus your efforts?