0.2 down

headed in the right direction :) and people around the office are starting to notice. it's both exciting and upsetting

i love it when people compliment me on my weight loss. i actually ran into a woman from our legal department today who asked what i'd been doing. so i gave her the weight watchers' party line. love this program, and it works really well for me so why not promote it. i still think it's the best program of the bunch, regardless of what anyone else says or thinks :p

the strange thing though is i also hate the fact that people notice and are super excited for me. i sometimes think about asking them how bad i was before. it's one thing for me to say to people "i've been trying to lose weight, and it's going really well". it's another for people to come up out of nowhere with "oh my god! have you lost weight? you look great!" cause i'm starting to think i was an even bigger fatty than i thought. a fatty who didn't hid her fatty-ness as well in her clearly ill fitting office attire. i don't know if it's entirely because i've lost weight, because my clothes are loose or a combination of both. today is particularly annoying because i'm wearing a top that's designed to be looser fitting. this is it's first trip out of the bag, and it was hard to get dressed. i wanted to wear capris, but they didn't look quite right. capris said business; top said margaritas. so i put on jeans. but i still don't think it quite works. the top's almost long enough to be worn as a dress so i think it'd go better with leggings. which i don't wear cause i hate them; these thighs were not meant for them :p so it's a bit of a dilemma. i really really like the color. just not loving the fit. it gets to stay though cause i think it'd make a great maternity top in the future. yea, i actually think about that. why buy a whole new wardrobe when i can get away with wearing my "fat clothes" for a few pregnancy months? cost effective, no?

eh. i'm only slightly ridiculous... it's not like people are being malicious or anything. so perhaps i should stop being a grouch about it. i'll work on accepting the compliments for what they are. it's not even about looking thinner so it shouldn't matter if i'm validated or not. i'm trying to get healthier, and fitting in to smaller jeans should be just a happy side effect :)