16 in 16

this is supposed to be my last week of my personal 16 pounds in 16 weeks challenge. wed i am supposed to be weighing in at my goal weight. my ultimate goal weight. which means i would start the new year on maintenance

ha! that's a laugh. the last three weeks have been so off. i won't rehash the stress of december, but i continue to contemplate how poorly i've done in the past few weeks. i actually yelled at my sister because she said "you can get back into it after the holidays". i know she meant well, but i hate when people say things like that. it was that kind of thinking that got me in this in the first place. my health and happiness cannot wait until after the holidays. i need to regain control now. this is one thing i can absolutely not procrastinate on

i did manage to keep my eating in check christmas day and the day after. i had bread pudding, peppermint shakes, honey baked ham, stuffing, scalloped potatoes, red velvet cake and pound cake. both days, around 9pm, i realized i still had points to use. i was that careful about how much i ate. unfortunately, i put in the wrong milk type yesterday and just caught it. i have one uneaten point; annoying. however, i'm not as annoyed as i was when i realized i'd eaten almost 2.5 days worth of points in a single day. travel days are not my friend when i haven't planned ahead. we had panera on the way out, and i just picked a random thing from the menu. breakfast sandwich on ciabatta plus a "low fat" smoothie? 21 points. *face palm* i should've known better. i also ordered a chai and received a second smoothie by accident. add another 11 points. ruby tuesdays for lunch? another 12 points. we had chinese for (an extremely late) dinner, which tacked on another 21 points. including the in-car snacking, i consumed 43 of my 49 weekly points in addition to my usual 29. points i'd been wanting to save for a huge slice of red velvet on christmas day. this is my life. this is my life out of control. thurs left two points on the table; friday i used an extra five. miscalculations have been my biggest problem for the last four days :( also the lack of working out. i brought turbo jam with me with every intention of working out. i should've known better. no dvd player or space upstairs. tv dominated by movies and sports downstairs. tasha has a busted elliptical, trampoline and an ab lounge; useless for burning significant calories. so i've spent a lot of time napping and reading. my google reader is at a respectable level, i finished the girl who played with fire and i watched all but two of my favorite christmas movies. i would pop in love actually now, but we're going to visit my great aunt in an hour. she didn't make it to dinner because she was worried about the snow. atlanta that doesn't really get snow :p we only got a dusting here, but you can't fight old ladies. oh well. i'm kinda excited to go to her house. she always has candy lying around... yes, i am an 8 year old... we haven't been to her house in years, but it always reminds me of my childhood. now that we don't have grandma's house, it's the last tangible thread i have

we're rolling out tomorrow, and i cannot wait. i miss my bed, my sweater weather and my nonjudgmental friends. i will probably miss my mom's family next christmas when we stay home, but i'll always remember why i needed a break. i already copied our favorite recipes from tasha's books. we'll be enjoying them in our own home in 2011 :p tomorrow is going to be a long day, but i'm ready for it. waffle house breakfast, fast food lunch and late ass dinner in my own apartment. can. not. wait