hide the cake

i really really really should not be allowed near sweets. they might be my red light food; all of them... N's brithday was saturday so we had dinner with his parents, my other family. fun as always :) mom made cake - three layers of yellow with chocolate icing. it was super delicious and totally came home with us. as of this morning, there are two pieces left. we had cake for dinner yesterday... after i had apple pie for my first course (pie that N made with mom on saturday just because)... after having an apple crescent and apple pancakes for breakfast. i also had a cookie as prebreakfast. all of it yummy; little of it sustaining

a couple weeks ago, i was going to try cutting back on sugar. that is clearly not going well. i don't eat a ton of sugar on a regular basis, but i know i can eat better. i obviously need a game plan, but sticking to it is so hard. every plan i have falls through because i'm a lazy bum. i have no one to blame except myself, and i know it. first thing i really need to do is get back on schedule. i don't go to bed on time, i don't get to the office on time and i certainly don't make time to be active. i still have a schedule; it's just been ineffective since the komen walk. i've been on break for two weeks...

fuck it. i need to stop whining and making excuses. it'd be great if i had a live in personal trainer to constantly kick my ass, but i don't... i'm going to get myself some tea and finish writing my thank you cards. i have two hours and 17 cards left (i know. so hard :p). i have shit to do after work, too, but i'm going to do at least 30 min tonight with the wii. it. will. happen

it's time to kick my own ass. starting now